HEART feels ...

yesterday we argued.

bcuz of me,

we argued.

made him MAD & DISAPPOINTED.

i admit i'm too over treating him.

bcuz i comment too many with boys.

comment until not perfunctory.

thus,

i made him bcomes very very MAD of me.

also,

DISAPPOINTED.

i shouldnt did the same mistakes.

but,

i did it again.

i'm crying now..

i'm still very sad bout it...

yesterday midnight i did cried too...

when he said he was very disappointed on me,

my HEART like the knife stab on it...

the 2nd time he said again he was very disappointed on me,

my HEART got stabbed again...

the feels......painful...

my HEART beat was stop for a while...

i couldnt feel it's beat anymore...

feel not myself anymore..

of course,

i know his was HURT...

and i felt more painful in my HEART..

i felt disappointed on myself too....

asking myself,

y i hurt him again & again...?

HE IS THE ONLY ONE LOVES ME A LOT!

HE IS THE ONE I WANTED SO MUCHH!!

hugging his small child sleeping pillow...

hug as hard as i can...

I DON WANNA LOSE HIM!

IF I LOST HIM,

I CANT CONTINUE MY LIFE ALONE!

i was crying...crying...and crying...

sent a text msg to beg him not to angry me again...

lastly,

we slept...

he slept with a anger mood...

and i...

slept with a painful heart...

dear,

很抱歉。

不要不理我...

不睬我...

好吗？

我想我真的改不了我自己...

谢谢你的包容、体谅、呵护 和 对我坚持爱。

如果没有你的包容、体谅、呵护与坚持的爱，

我想我们无法坚持在一起那么久...

辛苦你了。

都是我不好...

做不到一个好女友...

让你伤透了心...让你对我彻底失望...让你脾气暴躁...

抱歉。

我知道你不会接受我的道歉..

我还是会说...

亲爱的，

我爱你.....

我不知道要说什么了....

write until here bahs.

byez.